The Redlight District

 The shortest route from the market at Nieuwmarkt to the Damrak is through the Redlight District. Now I don't enjoy the Redlight District like an average man. I feel sorry for the girls who work there. If you imagine that some girls work as slaves and their bosses are notorious criminals, then visiting them is very wrong IMHO.
I walkdc through an small alley which was not wider than 4 feet. "There are no 'windows' here", was my first thought when I entered the alley. But there were! A young blond East European girl placed here eye on me. She only wore a black panty and a bra. The red lights shined on her skinny body. She looked confused. What the hell was she thinking? I know for sure she saw a transgirl. I was not a potential customer for her. I looked away. I looked back, she was still staring at me. But with a different look. A look full of jealousy. She saw a wealthy girl in a silk designers skirt, out for shopping, enjoying girlhood.
Well girl, I envy you too. At least you don't have genderdysphoria. You don't have to hide. Your job is quite simple. And you are stunning pretty.

Dress for the holidays

I'm so excited! I bought this dress at Ebay. I can't wait to wear it.

The blacks rule the world!

I went for shopping yesterday in Amsterdam in the largest shopping area outside the old center: Amsterdamse poort (Gate of Amsterdam). I knew it is located in a multiculti neighborhood, but I didn't expect so many Africans and Asians. There were just no white people in that crowed place. Okay, there were whites, but they were from Eastern Europe.

Disability

Normally I don't talk about this subject with friends. But on the internet, no subject is too taboo. I suffer from mild incontinence, which means I am not able to relex my bladder muscles completely. So after a visit to the restroom I start dripping when I sit down or bend over. It leaves a very uncomfortable feeling in my panties. I looked up on Wikipedia what the cause of this might be. I was really afraid of having some form of cancer. But is seems to be post micturition dribbling the most common form of incontinence. My doctor assured me I am not too young for having this. There is nothing to do about it. Just sit down and take time to pee.

Happiness is...

..just little things in life, like being Calista in the middle of the night, writing a post in my blog, making some pictures of myself, drinking one glass of white wine, getting lots of nice mails from people, being alone for a moment, having a moment of meditation, people being friendly to Calista in real life. Happiness is my stuff I hide in a secret place.
To summarize: My domain of freedom is my happiness.

And you are always welcome.

Awkward is...

.. when a GG who's sitting next to you in the train, is wearing the same piece of cloth as you.

Gender clinic - follow up

I called the gender clinic and they have put me on the 'waiting list'. It will take 4 or 5 months before I can make my first appointment.