Disability

Normally I don't talk about this subject with friends. But on the internet, no subject is too taboo. I suffer from mild incontinence, which means I am not able to relex my bladder muscles completely. So after a visit to the restroom I start dripping when I sit down or bend over. It leaves a very uncomfortable feeling in my panties. I looked up on Wikipedia what the cause of this might be. I was really afraid of having some form of cancer. But is seems to be post micturition dribbling the most common form of incontinence. My doctor assured me I am not too young for having this. There is nothing to do about it. Just sit down and take time to pee.

Happiness is...

..just little things in life, like being Calista in the middle of the night, writing a post in my blog, making some pictures of myself, drinking one glass of white wine, getting lots of nice mails from people, being alone for a moment, having a moment of meditation, people being friendly to Calista in real life. Happiness is my stuff I hide in a secret place.
To summarize: My domain of freedom is my happiness.

And you are always welcome.

Awkward is...

.. when a GG who's sitting next to you in the train, is wearing the same piece of cloth as you.

Gender clinic - follow up

I called the gender clinic and they have put me on the 'waiting list'. It will take 4 or 5 months before I can make my first appointment.

I'm a girl

I'm a girl. I'm a girl. I'm a girl. I'm a girl. I'm a girl. I'm a girl. I'm a girl. I'm a girl. I'm a girl. I'm a girl. I'm a girl. I'm a girl. I'm a girl. I'm a girl. I'm a girl. I'm a girl. I'm a girl. I'm a girl. I'm a girl. I'm a girl. I'm a girl. I'm a girl. I'm a girl. I'm a girl. I'm a girl. I'm a girl. I'm a girl. I'm a girl. I'm a girl. I'm a girl. I'm a girl. I'm a girl. I'm a girl. I'm a girl. I'm a girl. I'm a girl. I'm a girl. I'm a girl. I'm a girl. I'm a girl. I'm a girl. I'm a girl. I'm a girl. I'm a girl. I'm a girl. I'm a girl. I'm a girl. I'm a girl. I'm a girl. I'm a girl. I'm a girl. I'm a girl. I'm a girl. I'm a girl.

Ah that feels much better.

BTW support the project "Because I'm a Girl". Buy and wear the T-shirt "Because I'm a Girl" and give girls in other parts of the world a better chance!

A new video

Hey friends, it's me again. I just wanted to let you know I have posted a new video. Let me know what you think. I am open to positive critics, because it helps me to become more female.

Putting on make-up

Gender clinic

I read the whole website of the gender clinic in Amsterdam.
http://www.vumc.nl/afdelingen/zorgcentrum-voor-gender/

So I wanted to call them to make an appointment. I opened my cellphone, thought for a while and closed it again. Oh weak me.

Unfaithful

My wife's best friend, who lives next door, was in tears when she called my wife yesterday. She found out that her husband was cheating on her. He didn't went out for fishing last weekend, but he had a short vacation with another girl. And it has been going on for a while. It came as a shock for me too, as I know the guy quite well. He is a few years younger than me and he also has 2 children. His wife is very attractive, slim and sweet.

When I heard about my sister cheating on her husband, it didn't touched me. So why does my neighbors dramatic situation touches me so deep?

Autumn

Leaves are falling, it's getting darker in the evening and it's as dark as the night when I leave my house in the morning. But the autumn also has a lot of advantages. I like to sleep under a thick blanket, I love to drink hot chocolat, I love burning fireplaces. And then the apparel that comes with this season. Boots, gloves, hats, thick pantyhoses with short tartan skirts.
When I looked in my closet, I discovered that I have non of the previous called items. So that means it's time for shopping!

My hairband

My daughter confiscated my hairband :-(